Wookie Princess

  Every time I think about what I want I start thinking about others feeling and reactions When is it going to be ok to put me first? Is it selfish to want to be happy? When the price comes at the happiness of others?

  Pain in my heart Feels like there is no end Hearts open to me Arms to engulf me Support in the most unlikely places Someone does care At least a little Maybe not so lost after all Not with loyalty like this Has to be something to me That strangers become family What would I do without Hard days not so hard AMH

 You were supposed to teach me what love was. Instead you taught me what it was like to be left behind. You were supposed to show me how to expect to be treated. Maybe that is why I expect so little? You were supposed to be the one I compared every guy too. Maybe that is what I'm doing wrong? You were supposed to be my Dad. Instead you were the first to make me feel like I didn't matter.

  Who have I become Where is the woman of yesterday The strong independent kick ass woman The younger me is back and I do not like her Depending on others for her strength Letting people use her as a doormat Afraid to speak up for what she wants Worked so hard to to become more To never let anyone use me again I’m ashamed of the woman in the mirror today This is not the woman I am or was meant to be I struggled from nothing to something damnit That takes so much strength, but where is it now It’s time to take my life back It’s time to stop putting everyone else first I know that woman is still in there I can feel her begging to be let out   AMH

  When we became us In the beginning it was enough You were my best friend You were my everything Convinced me I could do and be more Convinced me there were no limits Encouraged me to be the woman you saw me as Now I have accomplished all those things But somewhere along the way Us became you and me Two strangers passing through life together I lost you to become me AMH

I hate the silence The questions all unanswered Wondering what I did wrong Wondering what is wrong with me Wondering if this is goodbye It’s not the the first one Probably won’t be the last Sometimes I wish I could vanish Then I wouldn’t have to sit in silence Wondering when it will end   AMH

  Could just once I be important Important enough to miss Important enough to chose Important enough to find Could just once I be enough Enough woman Enough lover Enough heart Could just once I be everything Everything you need Everything you want Everything you desire Could just once I be truly loved? AMH