Lost

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Who have I become

Where is the woman of yesterday

The strong independent kick ass woman

The younger me is back and I do not like her

Depending on others for her strength

Letting people use her as a doormat

Afraid to speak up for what she wants

Worked so hard to to become more

To never let anyone use me again

I’m ashamed of the woman in the mirror today

This is not the woman I am or was meant to be

I struggled from nothing to something damnit

That takes so much strength, but where is it now

It’s time to take my life back

It’s time to stop putting everyone else first

I know that woman is still in there

I can feel her begging to be let out

 

AMH

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