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 You were supposed to teach me what love was.

Instead you taught me what it was like to be left behind.

You were supposed to show me how to expect to be treated.

Maybe that is why I expect so little?

You were supposed to be the one I compared every guy too.

Maybe that is what I'm doing wrong?

You were supposed to be my Dad.

Instead you were the first to make me feel like I didn't matter.

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