Deprivation
There has been so much of this in my life. Love Attention Feeling wanted Feeling important Just fucking mattering People don’t consider these necessities. They really are for some of us. Some of these are old wounds that never healed. Letting my broken heart make decisions for me has not helped. Trying to protect my heart led to more pain. Even worse, it led to more deprivation for me. In trying to avoid pain I caused more of it. The worst of it is I’m not ready to change things. So now I have deprivation of my own making. I’m worth more. I deserve more. I want more. I’m just scared to try. AMH