Cost
I was living in a cage of my own making From the outside I had every reason to be happy No abuse or anything like that Just a lot of indifference to my needs Distractions helped numb the pain Until it just didn’t work anymore I no longer wanted to live this life The cage kept getting smaller and smaller I could escape by ending it all Or I could put myself first I could remove the locks I could live the life I have always wanted But what of the cost For me the cost was guilt Guilt for chasing my own happiness at the expense of others Is it selfish? Is the cost worth it? For the others I left behind probably not For me I will live with the cost of chasing happy I have no regrets except not doing it sooner AMH