Disconnected

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 A ghost of my former self

Broken but fighting 

Trying to find my way back

Heart shattered 

Worth damaged

People care

Trying to let them know 

I appreciate them

Trust in myself gone

Finding it hard not to isolate 

Finding it hard to be me

Is she gone forever


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