Walls Down

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I put the walls up and kept them strong for a long time
 A few dents here and there as I made my new life
 I just never let anyone far enough to touch the heart
 Tired of hurting for so long I protected them with everything I had
 Then he told me I was special to him
 He told me I was beautiful
 He told me he loved me
 He said all the things I wanted to hear for so long
 I know better but the walls started to crack little by little
 I know how easy words are to say
 Yet I let the cracks form over and over
 I even tried to run when I knew he mattered to me more than he should
 I ran and he chased, I ran and he told me I mattered, I ran and he told me I was special
 Why did he tell me I was special when I wasn't?
 Why did he tell me I mattered when I didn't?
 Why did he make me feel wanted when I wasn't?
 I let the walls down and exposed my battered heart
 It has new bruises, cuts, and cracks
 The walls came down and now it all hurts more than I can say
 I'm building them again stronger than before
 The pain will heal, the tears will stop, the lesson will be learned
 But for just a moment I felt special and wanted
 That will take longer to recover from
 No more walls down for me


AMH

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