I Wasn't Supposed to Love You

 I wasn’t supposed to love you

You were my friend 

The person I could tell anything 

We were wrong for more

Then one night I was shattered

Someone took my control 

You were there every step of the way

Giving me everything I needed

I realized you were not just a friend 

You were my best friend 

As time went on the physical healed 

Mostly thanks to you

The emotional will take so much more

Before long you became more

I didn’t just love my friend 

I was in love with someone who didn’t feel the same

I wasn’t supposed to love you

You were always special to me

I always cared more than you

Now it was so much worse

It was slowly tearing me apart

I was already broken

If I continued loving what I couldn’t have

I would never come back

I had to let you go

Putting up that boundary hurt more than you can imagine 

My heart is in pieces 

So easy for you to let me go

So now I’m picking up all my broken pieces 

So easy for you to let me go

A heart so foolish

Trusted the wrong person 

He destroyed my happy life

You destroyed my fragile heart

I can’t blame you

I can’t hate you

You never lied

You were honest to a fault

I wasn’t supposed to love you

I was just not that important to you

I know you care

You have shown that more than once

I wasn’t supposed to love you

Your kiss wasn’t supposed to make my mind blank

Your touch wasn’t supposed to make me feel so much

Maybe I have always loved you

Maybe I was in denial 

Maybe the trauma just made me admit what was always there

It’s really not important when it happened 

I can’t love you

You will never love me

I can’t be that woman

I deserve to be loved in return 

I wasn’t supposed to love you

It’s not your fault you don’t feel the same

You will never know how I feel

I had to let you go

I wasn’t supposed to love you

Maybe the friendship will survive

I really don’t want to lose my best friend too

But I can not go on being this person 

I had to let you go to save me

So I’ll say it where you will never see

I’m in love with you

Despite all the reasons I shouldn’t be

Despite you not feeling the same

I’m in love with you 

I wasn’t supposed to love you