Wookie Princess

 I wasn’t supposed to love you You were my friend  The person I could tell anything  We were wrong for more Then one night I was shattered Someone took my control  You were there every step of the way Giving me everything I needed I realized you were not just a friend  You were my best friend  As time went on the physical healed  Mostly thanks to you The emotional will take so much more Before long you became more I didn’t just love my friend  I was in love with someone who didn’t feel the same I wasn’t supposed to love you You were always special to me I always cared more than you Now it was so much worse It was slowly tearing me apart I was already broken If I continued loving what I couldn’t have I would never come back I had to let you go Putting up that boundary hurt more than you can imagine  My heart is in pieces  So easy for you to let me go So now I’m picking up all my broken pieces  So easy for you to let me go A heart so ...

  The me of yesterday is gone Unequivocally changed in one night The me of today is broken  Not what I want for my future   The me of tomorrow is uncertain   Not sure of my path forward   All of the versions are colliding   Making it hard to be certain  If I can find the me I want

 What if's clouding my brain What if I fail? What if it all comes crashing down? What if life never works out? What if it was all one big mistake? But What if I succeed? What if its better than I ever expected? What if I finally get to experience everything life has to offer?  What if I get everything I ever wanted? It's time to change the narrative

 Dark clouds rambling in my head Trying to push back the tide  In this storm of my own making I wish I knew how to stop I wish I knew why my brain is different There is comfort that its not as bad That I can see rays through the clouds Once upon a time I couldn't Taking the steps to make it better Knowing I can make it better I will push through the storm Find my happy again

One day I  realized I was only your friend, sorta Sorta friends shouldn't care right Sorta friends should live their own life  Sorta friends shouldn't feel rejected Sorta friends don't matter at the end of the day Sorta friends just pass through your life If only you were sorta a friend to me too

I said goodbye to you Babe My heart was broken and you were part of that I did a lot of healing and growing Didn't let anyone in but my friends Then I was ready to try again This time without all the pain I wanted more than I did before Still not traditional but I wasn't scared to feel again I met someone that reminded me of you I missed you so damn much and broke my rule I reached out one night after my defenses were low I knew it was a mistake but I did it anyway again and again I let you back in to my life knowing how badly it went last time I no longer kept my mouth shut and told you exactly what I expected You backed off immediately when I showed you my true self You know longer wanted to see me but still keep me in your life I tried to walk away again but you wouldn't allow it I'm not sure why you want me around as its clear you don't like the true me It didn't take long to realize it would never be the same again I no longer trust you with my heart  You n...