Cost

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I was living in a cage of my own making

From the outside I had every reason to be happy

No abuse or anything like that

Just a lot of indifference to my needs

Distractions helped numb the pain

Until it just didn’t work anymore

I no longer wanted to live this life

The cage kept getting smaller and smaller

I could escape by ending it all

Or I could put myself first

I could remove the locks

I could live the life I have always wanted

But what of the cost

For me the cost was guilt

Guilt for chasing my own happiness at the expense of others

Is it selfish?  Is the cost worth it?

For the others I left behind probably not

For me I will live with the cost of chasing happy

I have no regrets except not doing it sooner


AMH

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