Surviving

 My life is a bit of a mess

Not sure how to put all the pieces back together 

Taking my fathers path to keep going

I know how that ends

I have support but I have to fix it

My job is no more

I love what I can’t have

Escape seems so easy

But it’s all just waiting there

My pain. My fear, my love

Each night I lay down and the tears slip out

Scared I will fail putting it all back together 

Scared I won’t move on

The fear and pain are so overwhelming 

Do you blame me for needing to forget a bit

Maybe you should

Because it’s a path of no return 

Worse is down that road than I’m going through now

I’m trying, but it’s hard

I’m living but a day at a time

I’m surviving  because it’s what I do

I’m smiling, because I’m a chameleon

I will not break, because I refuse too